Christmas Confession: Turning Our Hearts Back to God

Christmas is the celebration of the birth of Jesus—Emmanuel, God with us. Yet the incarnation is not only something we remember; it is a truth that confronts us. God came near in Jesus to heal, to reconcile, and to call humanity back to God’s ways. On this holy day, joy and hope must also make room for honesty and repentance.

I pray daily to live into the heart of the faith expressed in Micah 6:8: to do justice, love kindness, and walk humbly with God. Jesus makes that calling unmistakably clear in Matthew 25:31–46, where he identifies himself with the hungry, the stranger, the sick, and the imprisoned. Mark 12:29–31 centers everything on love—love of God and love of neighbor. And Paul, in Galatians 5:22–23, reminds us that the Spirit’s presence is seen not in power or dominance, but in love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.

Measured by these Scriptures, we cannot pretend that all is well.

America’s history carries deep wounds that still ache today. The Trail of Tears, chattel slavery, segregation, and the ongoing suffering of refugees and immigrants are not footnotes of the past; they are living realities whose consequences persist. These are not merely political issues—they are spiritual ones. They reveal how often fear has replaced love, power has replaced humility, and silence has replaced compassion.

This is why 2 Chronicles 7:14 speaks so powerfully to our moment:

“If my people who are called by my name humble themselves, pray, seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, forgive their sin, and heal their land.”

Notice where healing begins—not with blaming others, but with God’s people. Confession is not about self-condemnation; it is about truth-telling. To confess is to stop justifying harm, to stop spiritualizing injustice, and to acknowledge where we, individually and collectively, have failed to love our neighbors as ourselves.

Confession requires humility—admitting that we have benefited from unjust systems, remained silent when voices needed defending, and chosen comfort over costly love. It calls us to pray not for God to bless our nation as it is, but to transform it into what it should be. It invites us to seek God’s face, not God’s endorsement.

Christmas tells us that God entered the world vulnerable and poor, born among the marginalized, later fleeing violence as a refugee. If we claim to follow Christ, then confession must lead us to repentance—real turning. Turning toward justice. Turning toward welcome. Turning toward mercy. Turning toward the fruit of the Spirit that reshapes both hearts and societies.

On this Christmas Day, confession is a holy gift. It clears the way for healing. It opens space for God to do a new thing among us. The Christ who is born today still calls us to be his body in the world—humble, honest, and brave enough to repent, so that love may finally have the last word.

Prayer

God of mercy and truth,
We confess that we have not loved as you have loved us.
We have turned away from suffering, remained silent in the face of injustice,
and chosen fear instead of compassion.
Humble our hearts.
Open our eyes.
Turn us from our sinful ways,
that you may heal our land and renew your people.
As we celebrate the birth of Jesus,
give us the courage to follow him—
doing justice, loving kindness, and walking humbly with you.
Amen.

Beloved, Let Us Love: A Christmas Eve Devotional on 1 John 4:7–16

On Christmas Eve, we gather at the edge of mystery. The lights glow softly, familiar carols stir memory and hope, and we hear again the astonishing claim of the Christian faith: God is love. Not love as sentiment or slogan, but love made flesh—born into the world in Jesus. Few passages name this truth more simply or more boldly than 1 John 4:7–16.

“Beloved, let us love one another, because love is from God.”
John does not begin with a command but with an identity. We are beloved—already loved before we do anything right or wrong. Love does not originate in us; it flows from God. That means Christian love is not something we manufacture by effort or willpower. It is something we receive and then pass on.

At Christmas, we celebrate that God’s love did not remain distant or abstract. “God’s love was revealed among us in this way: God sent his only Son into the world so that we might live through him.” Love took on skin and breath. Love cried in a manger. Love entered the vulnerability of human life—not to condemn it, but to heal it.

This is crucial for our time. We live in a world saturated with fear, division, and loud certainty. Love is often reduced to agreement or affection for those who think like us. But John insists that real love is defined by God’s action, not our preferences. “In this is love, not that we loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the atoning sacrifice for our sins.” Love begins with God’s initiative, God’s mercy, God’s self-giving.

That means love is not earned. It is not deserved. It is given.

On Christmas Eve, this truth confronts both our pride and our shame. For those who feel self-sufficient, it reminds us that we are saved not by our goodness but by God’s grace. For those who feel unworthy, it proclaims that God’s love has already moved toward us—before we cleaned ourselves up, before we had it all figured out.

John then turns the light toward us: “Beloved, since God loved us so much, we also ought to love one another.” This is not a moral burden laid on tired shoulders. It is an invitation to live out what is already true. If God’s love abides in us, it will take shape in our relationships—in patience, forgiveness, compassion, and courage.

Notice what John does not say. He does not say we must agree with one another on everything. He does not say love is easy or sentimental. He does not say love avoids conflict. He says love is the evidence of God’s presence. “No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God lives in us, and his love is perfected in us.”

In other words, the invisible God becomes visible through love. The world sees God not primarily through our arguments or institutions, but through lives shaped by Christlike love.

This is especially meaningful on Christmas Eve. The child in the manger cannot speak yet, cannot teach yet, cannot perform miracles yet. But God has already spoken clearly: This is what love looks like. Vulnerable. Near. Given for others.

John goes even further: “God is love, and those who abide in love abide in God, and God abides in them.” To abide is to remain, to dwell, to make a home. On this holy night, we remember that God has chosen to make a home with us—and invites us to make our home in love.

As we stand on the threshold of Christmas, 1 John 4 calls us back to the heart of the faith. Not fear, but love. Not exclusion, but abiding. Not proving ourselves, but receiving grace and sharing it freely.

So tonight, as candles are lit and prayers are whispered, may we rest in this truth:
We are loved. God is love. And because of Christmas, that love has come to dwell among us.

May that love shape our words, soften our judgments, heal our divisions, and guide us into the coming year—beloved, loving, and abiding in God.

When the King Comes Without a Sword

A Devotional Reflection for 2026

The Bible does not shy away from strong images: kings on thrones, battles fought, enemies defeated, weapons raised. Psalm 45 sings of a royal warrior; Isaiah speaks of a highway through the wilderness; Revelation announces a coming Judge; Zechariah’s song in Luke 1 celebrates deliverance from enemies. To modern ears—especially in a world weary of violence—these images can feel unsettling, even at odds with the Jesus who teaches us to love our enemies and lay down our lives.

Yet these Scriptures are not glorifying violence. They are speaking into fear.

Power Reimagined

Psalm 45 presents a king whose glory is bound to truth, humility, and righteousness. His “victory” is not conquest for its own sake, but the establishment of justice. This is already a clue that biblical power is not raw force, but moral authority. In a world where leadership in 2026 is often defined by domination, manipulation, or outrage, Scripture reminds us that true kingship serves the vulnerable and restores what has been broken.

Isaiah 35 expands this vision even further. There is no battle scene here—only deserts blooming, the blind seeing, the lame leaping, and the fearful finding courage. God’s reign does not arrive with scorched earth but with healing. The “highway” through the wilderness is not a road for armies, but a path home for the wounded and the lost.

From Enemies to Fear

Zechariah’s song in Luke 1 speaks of being “saved from our enemies,” but as his prophecy unfolds, it becomes clear that the deeper enemy is not another nation or army—it is fear itself. The promise is that we might serve God “without fear, in holiness and righteousness.” The salvation announced at the dawn of Jesus’ life is not revenge, but freedom: freedom from sin, from shame, from living small and guarded lives.

This is crucial for our time. In 2026, fear remains one of the most powerful forces shaping politics, relationships, and even faith communities. Scripture’s strong language about deliverance is not an endorsement of violence; it is God’s answer to a world held hostage by fear.

The Last Word Is Invitation

Revelation 22 brings the Bible’s story to its close, not with a battlefield, but with an invitation: “Come.” The One who is coming brings justice, yes—but also healing, mercy, and life. The final image is not a weapon, but water freely given. Grace is the last word.

The King of Revelation does not conquer by killing; He conquers by enduring the cross and rising from the grave. Judgment is not opposed to love—it is love’s refusal to let cruelty, lies, and death have the final say.

What This Means for Us in 2026

These Scriptures call us to rethink power, strength, and victory. God’s reign does not mirror the violence of the world; it redeems it. We are invited to lay down our own weapons—our bitterness, our need to be right, our fear of the other—and walk the holy highway of healing and trust.

In a fractured and anxious world, the Church’s calling is not to wield power like the nations do, but to witness to a different kind of King: one whose crown is compassion, whose authority flows from love, and whose victory is life for all who thirst.

The Spirit and the Bride still say, “Come.”
And in 2026, that invitation matters more than ever.

Longing for the World God Promised

There are days when the ache for more—for justice, peace, and truth—feels almost unbearable. Reading Psalm 61, Isaiah 11:1–9, Revelation 20:1–10, and John 5:30–47 invites us to admit that longing rather than suppress it. These Scriptures give voice to a prayer many of us carry quietly: How long, O Lord, until the world is made right?

A Cry from the Overwhelmed Heart

Psalm 61 begins not with triumph, but with exhaustion:

“Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the end of the earth I call to you, when my heart is faint.”

This is not the prayer of someone who has it all together. It is the prayer of one who feels small in the face of chaos and danger. The psalmist does not pretend strength; instead, he asks to be led to “the rock that is higher than I.” In our day—marked by political division, violence, climate anxiety, and spiritual confusion—this cry feels deeply familiar. Faith does not deny our weariness; it directs it toward God.

A Vision of the World as God Intends It

Isaiah 11:1–9 offers one of the most breathtaking pictures in all of Scripture: a Spirit-anointed ruler from the line of Jesse who judges with righteousness, defends the poor, and ushers in a creation where predators and prey live in peace.

This is not escapism. It is moral imagination. Isaiah gives us a vision of what the world looks like when God’s justice fully reigns—not just in human hearts, but in social structures and even creation itself. The longing you feel for this passage is holy longing. It is the ache for a world where violence no longer defines relationships and fear no longer governs lives.

Isaiah reminds us that peace is not merely the absence of conflict; it is the presence of justice, wisdom, and reverence for God.

The Hope—and Tension—of Revelation

Revelation 20:1–10 speaks of evil being restrained and ultimately destroyed. However one understands the details of this passage, its core message is clear: evil does not have the final word. The forces that deceive, dominate, and destroy are not eternal. God sets limits. God brings judgment. God brings renewal.

Our longing for this fulfillment is not impatience; it is protest. To long for Revelation’s promise is to say that the cruelty and deception we see every day are unacceptable—and temporary. Christians live in this tension: we know the victory is promised, but we also know it is not yet fully realized.

Jesus at the Center of It All

John 5:30–47 brings the focus sharply back to Jesus. He speaks not as an isolated teacher, but as one sent by the Father, bearing witness to God’s truth. Jesus confronts religious leaders who know the Scriptures well but fail to recognize the life to which those Scriptures point.

This is a warning for our day. It is possible to long for God’s future while missing God’s presence right in front of us. Jesus reminds us that eternal life is not only a future hope; it begins now, in hearing his voice and trusting his way of love, justice, humility, and truth.

Living Between Longing and Faithfulness

So how do these Scriptures apply to our day?

They tell us it is faithful to long for God’s promised future.
They remind us to bring our weariness honestly before God.
They call us to resist evil—not with despair or violence, but with trust in God’s ultimate justice.
And they challenge us to live now as citizens of the world we are praying for.

We may not yet see the wolf and the lamb lying down together. But every act of compassion, every pursuit of justice, every refusal to participate in deception or hatred is a quiet witness that God’s reign is coming.

Until that day, we stand on the rock higher than ourselves, holding fast to the hope that “the earth will be full of the knowledge of the Lord as the waters cover the sea.”

Closing Prayer

Faithful God,
You hear our cries when our hearts are faint.
You have shown us a vision of peace we can scarcely imagine,
and a promise that evil will not endure forever.
Give us courage to live as people of that promise today.
Root us in Christ, keep us faithful in the waiting,
and deepen our hope until the day your justice and peace fill all creation.
Amen.


From Green Pastures to Wounded Faith: Learning to Trust What We Cannot See

A Devotional Reflection on Psalm 23, Job 42:1-6, I Peter 1:3-9, and Thomas, the Follower and Disciple of Jesus

Psalm 23 is often the first Scripture we reach for in times of comfort—and in times of fear. Its familiar words speak of a God who leads, restores, and stays near, even “through the valley of the shadow of death.” Yet what makes this psalm enduring is not its sentimentality but its honesty. The psalmist does not deny the valley. Faith does not eliminate danger, loss, or uncertainty; it trusts the Shepherd within them.

That theme comes into sharp focus in Job 42:1–6. After chapters of suffering, questions, arguments, and silence, Job finally speaks—not with answers, but with surrender. “I had heard of you by the hearing of the ear,” Job says, “but now my eye sees you.” Job’s confession is not one of shame but of transformation. He learns that faith is not control or certainty; it is humility before a God whose wisdom exceeds human explanation. Job does not receive a tidy reason for his suffering. He receives a deeper encounter with God.

Peter echoes this movement from certainty to trust in 1 Peter 1:3–9. Writing to believers who are suffering and scattered, Peter speaks of a “living hope” rooted not in circumstances but in the resurrection of Jesus Christ. He names the paradox of faith plainly: “Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him.” Faith here is not blind optimism—it is resilient trust, refined by trials, anchored in hope that reaches beyond what is visible.

This brings us to Thomas, the disciple who has been unfairly labeled “the doubter.” Thomas is not faithless; he is honest. He refuses to pretend belief when his heart is broken and his world has been shattered. He wants what the others have already received: an encounter with the risen Christ. When Jesus appears and invites Thomas to touch his wounds, He does not shame him. Instead, Jesus meets Thomas where he is. Thomas responds with one of the clearest confessions of faith in the Gospels: “My Lord and my God.”

Jesus then speaks words that echo across generations: “Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have come to believe.” This is not a rebuke. It is a blessing—for those who walk the path of Psalm 23, who sit in the ashes with Job, who endure trials with Peter’s fragile churches, and who live in the long space between promise and fulfillment.

Together, these Scriptures remind us that faith is not the absence of questions or wounds. Faith is the courage to trust God’s presence when the path is unclear, the valley is dark, and certainty is out of reach. The Shepherd leads. God reveals Himself not through easy answers, but through relationship. Hope lives—not because we see clearly, but because we are held securely.

In our own time, when anxiety, loss, and skepticism are everywhere, these texts invite us to a quieter, deeper faith: one that walks, waits, and worships—even when we do not fully understand. Like Thomas, we are invited not to suppress our doubts, but to bring them honestly to Christ. Like Job, we learn that encountering God changes us more than explanations ever could. And like the psalmist, we discover that goodness and mercy do not chase us only in peaceful seasons, but follow us all the days of our lives.

Faith, in the end, is not about seeing everything clearly. It is about trusting the One who walks with us—through every valley—until we are finally home.

When Darkness Is Loud and Hope Feels Quiet

Psalm 40, Isaiah 10:5–19, Matthew 11:2–15, and 2 Peter 2:17–22 paint an unsettling picture. They speak of pits and prisons, of arrogant power and shattered illusions, of leaders who promise much and deliver nothing. These are not gentle texts. They do not flatter us or numb us. Instead, they confront us with a truth our age desperately needs: darkness becomes most dangerous when it disguises itself as light.

Psalm 40 begins in desperation. The psalmist is stuck in “the pit of destruction, the muddy bog,” waiting—patiently, painfully—for God. This is not triumphant faith; it is faith stripped down to survival. Yet the psalm insists that God hears. Deliverance does not come because the psalmist escapes on their own strength, but because God bends low and lifts them out. In our day of burnout, grief, and quiet despair, Psalm 40 reassures us that waiting is not failure and honesty is not unbelief.

Isaiah 10:5–19 exposes a different darkness—the arrogance of power. Assyria is used as an instrument, yet it mistakes its role and assumes it is self-made, self-justified, and untouchable. The warning is stark: when nations, leaders, or systems believe their success proves their righteousness, they are already on the path to collapse. Isaiah speaks directly to our modern obsession with dominance, control, and supremacy. God reminds us that no empire lasts forever, and no power escapes accountability.

Then Matthew 11:2–15 brings the darkness closer to home. John the Baptist, faithful and imprisoned, questions Jesus: “Are you the one who is to come, or should we wait for another?” This is not rebellion—it is disappointment. John expected fire and judgment; instead, Jesus points to healing, restoration, and good news for the poor. Jesus honors John, yet offers a sobering word: “Blessed is anyone who does not stumble on account of me.” In other words, God’s work may not look the way we expect, and faith is tested when God refuses to fit our assumptions.

2 Peter 2:17–22 sharpens the warning even further. Peter describes false teachers as “waterless springs” and “mists driven by a storm”—promising refreshment but delivering emptiness. They speak of freedom while remaining enslaved themselves. This passage is unsettling because it reminds us that not all religious language leads to life. Not all confident voices speak truth. In our age of loud opinions, spiritual influencers, political prophets, and moral certainty, Peter warns us that returning to destructive patterns after knowing the truth is not progress—it is bondage disguised as enlightenment.

Taken together, these Scriptures tell a unified story for our time:

  • Psalm 40 speaks to those trapped and waiting.
  • Isaiah 10 confronts unchecked power and pride.
  • Matthew 11 acknowledges doubt and unmet expectations.
  • 2 Peter 2 warns against hollow promises and false freedom.

The darkness they describe is real, but it is not hopeless. The danger is not simply suffering or doubt—it is arrogance, deception, and the refusal to be transformed. God is not absent in these texts; God is discerning, exposing, and inviting repentance.

The question for our day is not, “Why is everything so broken?”
It is, “Who are we trusting, and where are we being led?”

True hope does not come from loud promises or quick fixes. It comes from a God who lifts us from pits, humbles the proud, meets us in our doubts, and calls us to a deeper, truer freedom.


Closing Prayer

God of truth and mercy,
When the world feels dark and voices compete for our trust,
anchor us in your faithfulness.
Lift us from the pits that trap us,
strip away the pride that blinds us,
and guard us from empty promises that lead us astray.
Give us discernment to recognize your work,
patience to trust your timing,
and courage to follow your way of life.
Amen.

Are we willing to listen while there is still time?

At first glance, today’s readings—Psalm 50, Isaiah 9:18–10:4, 2 Peter 2:10–16, and Matthew 3:1–12—feel uncomfortably blunt. Each text names sin plainly and exposes patterns of human behavior that distort our relationship with God and with one another. It can sound like relentless judgment. But if we listen carefully, these Scriptures are not merely condemning; they are calling. They speak to our moment with urgency and hope.

God Is Not Interested in Religious Performance

Psalm 50 confronts a temptation that feels very modern: confusing religious activity with faithfulness. God says plainly that sacrifices, rituals, and words mean little when justice, gratitude, and humility are absent. In 2025, this speaks powerfully to a culture saturated with spiritual language but often disconnected from spiritual depth. God is not impressed by our posts, slogans, or church attendance if our lives mirror the same greed, cruelty, dishonesty, and indifference as the surrounding culture.

The message is clear: God desires transformed hearts, not curated appearances.

When Society Normalizes Injustice

Isaiah paints a devastating picture of a society unraveling from within—violence breeding violence, leaders exploiting the vulnerable, the poor left without protection. The repeated refrain is chilling: “For all this his anger has not turned away; his hand is stretched out still.” Not because God delights in punishment, but because people refuse to change.

As we approach 2026, we recognize similar patterns: widening inequality, hardened hearts, political systems that protect power rather than people, and compassion that is often conditional. Isaiah reminds us that sin is not only personal; it is communal. God’s concern is not just individual morality but the structures we tolerate that harm the least among us.

Freedom Without Truth Becomes Destruction

In 2 Peter, the warning sharpens. False teachers promise freedom while being enslaved to their own desires. They mock authority, dismiss accountability, and elevate instinct over wisdom. This resonates deeply in an age that prizes personal freedom above all else—even when that “freedom” damages others and ourselves.

Peter’s message for our time is sobering: when truth is abandoned, freedom becomes a lie, and self-expression becomes self-destruction.

Repentance Is Still the Doorway to Hope

Then comes John the Baptist in Matthew’s Gospel—unpolished, uncompromising, and urgent. “Repent, for the kingdom of heaven has come near.” Repentance here is not shame-based or punitive; it is an invitation to change direction. John refuses to let people hide behind ancestry, identity, or religious status. What matters is fruit—lives that reflect God’s justice, mercy, and truth.

For us, repentance may mean reexamining what we excuse, what we ignore, and what we’ve learned to live with that God never intended. It may mean letting go of cynicism and rediscovering the courage to live differently.

God’s Word to Us Now

Together, these Scriptures tell us something vital: God is still speaking because God is still hoping. Judgment in Scripture is never the last word; it is a warning meant to awaken us before it is too late.

As we move into 2026, God is calling us:

  • From religious habit to authentic faith
  • From indifference to responsibility
  • From self-justification to repentance
  • From despair to transformation

The fire John speaks of is not only destructive—it is refining. God’s desire is not to discard us, but to restore us.

The question these Scriptures place before us is simple and profound:
Are we willing to listen while there is still time?

Closing Prayer

Gracious and holy God,
You see us clearly—our faith and our fear, our love and our compromises.
Give us hearts that are honest, lives that bear good fruit,
and courage to repent where we have grown comfortable with sin.
Refine us, not to destroy us,
but to make us instruments of your justice, mercy, and hope
in a weary world.

Light, Truth, and Faithful Witness in a Dark Hour

Advent is a season of waiting, but it is not passive waiting. It is a time when God’s promises press into the realities of our world—its darkness, confusion, and longing—and declare that something new is already breaking in.

The Scriptures you read speak powerfully to our own day, a time marked by anxiety, fractured truth, and weary hope.

Psalm 45 presents a vision of a righteous king whose reign is marked by truth, humility, and justice. The psalmist sings of beauty and gladness, not as shallow sentiment, but as the fruit of God’s rule. In a world where leadership often disappoints or deceives, this psalm reminds us that God’s true King reigns differently. Advent invites us to reorient our allegiance—to trust not in power, violence, or charisma, but in the One whose throne is founded on righteousness and whose word brings life.

Isaiah 9:1–7 gives us one of Advent’s clearest proclamations: “The people who walked in darkness have seen a great light.” Isaiah names what we know all too well—darkness, oppression, fear, and the weight of unjust systems. Yet into this reality comes a child, a gift, a ruler whose authority rests not on domination but on peace. For our day—filled with war, political division, economic anxiety, and spiritual fatigue—this passage insists that hope is not naïve. God’s answer to darkness is not withdrawal but incarnation. The light comes to the places of greatest shadow.

2 Peter 1:12–21 turns our attention to truth and memory. Peter urges believers to hold fast to what they have received, especially when competing voices clamor for attention. He reminds us that the Christian hope is not a cleverly constructed story but grounded in eyewitness testimony and the sure word of God. In an age of misinformation, conspiracy, and spiritual shortcuts, Advent calls us to steady faith—rooted in Scripture, shaped by community, and open to the Spirit who continues to guide us into truth.

Luke 22:54–69 brings us into the painful heart of the story: Peter’s denial and Jesus’ silent faithfulness. Fear, exhaustion, and self-preservation lead Peter to deny the One he loves. This scene resonates deeply in our time, when discipleship often feels costly and silence can seem safer than truth. Yet even here, Advent hope remains. Jesus does not abandon Peter. The gaze of Jesus—steady, sorrowful, compassionate—meets human failure without condemnation. Advent assures us that God’s redemptive work continues even when our courage falters.

Together, these Scriptures teach us that Advent is about living between promise and fulfillment. We wait for the Prince of Peace while naming the darkness honestly. We cling to truth while acknowledging our weakness. We trust in God’s reign even when the world looks nothing like the kingdom we long for.

Advent invites us to watch, to remember, and to hope—not because we are strong, but because God is faithful. The light has come, and it is still coming.

Come, Lord Jesus. Amen.

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Faith When the Lights Are Low

A Devotional Reflection on Psalm 41, Isaiah 8:16–9:1, Luke 22:39–53, and 2 Peter 1:1–11

Some days the Scriptures do not feel comforting so much as bracing. They do not rush to reassurance. Instead, they tell the truth about betrayal, fear, darkness, and the slow, demanding work of faith. Today’s readings belong to that kind of day. And perhaps that is exactly why they are so needed for our time.

Betrayal, Weakness, and God’s Nearness (Psalm 41)

Psalm 41 begins with care for the weak and sick, but it does not remain gentle for long. The psalmist speaks plainly of enemies, whispered lies, and betrayal by a close companion—“even my close friend, whom I trusted, who ate my bread, has lifted the heel against me.”

This is not abstract theology. It is lived pain. The psalm refuses to pretend that faith protects us from disappointment or treachery. Instead, it insists that God is near precisely there. The psalmist clings not to circumstances, but to God’s sustaining presence: “The Lord sustains them on their sickbed.”

For our day—marked by fractured relationships, institutional betrayals, and broken trust—this psalm gives permission to name what hurts without losing faith. Trust in God does not require denial. It requires honesty.

Living in the Tension Between Darkness and Dawn (Isaiah 8:16–9:1)

Isaiah speaks to a people tempted to seek guidance everywhere except from God. Fear dominates the culture. Confusion reigns. Yet Isaiah urges a different posture: bind up the testimony, seal the teaching, and wait for the Lord.

The passage ends with a promise that will not be fully realized until later: “The people who walked in darkness have seen a great light.” But notice—this promise comes before the light appears. It is spoken into darkness, not after it ends.

That matters for us. We live in an age of anxiety, conspiracy, and noise. Isaiah reminds us that faith is not frantic certainty. It is disciplined waiting. It is choosing to listen for God’s voice when many other voices shout for our allegiance.

Faithfulness in the Hour of Fear (Luke 22:39–53)

In Gethsemane, Jesus embodies everything these earlier readings anticipate. He is faithful, afraid, obedient, and deeply human. He prays for the cup to pass, yet entrusts himself fully to the Father. His disciples, meanwhile, falter—sleeping instead of watching, fighting instead of trusting.

Then comes betrayal. A kiss becomes a weapon. Darkness seems to win.

Yet Luke is careful to show us something crucial: Jesus is not surprised. He names the hour for what it is—the power of darkness—but he does not surrender his identity or his mission. Even here, he heals. Even here, he refuses violence.

For our time, when fear so often turns to anger and aggression, Jesus shows another way: courage without cruelty, obedience without domination, love without illusion.

Growing Faith for a Long Journey (2 Peter 1:1–11)

If the Gospel shows us faith under pressure, 2 Peter shows us faith over time. The letter urges believers not to treat faith as static, but as something that must grow—step by step—into virtue, knowledge, self-control, endurance, godliness, mutual affection, and love.

This is not a checklist for perfection. It is a reminder that faith matures through practice. In uncertain times, we are not called to instant clarity, but to steady formation.

The promise is striking: if we continue in these things, we will not stumble. Not because life is easy, but because we are being shaped to endure it.

What These Scriptures Say to Us Now

Taken together, these readings speak to a world living between betrayal and hope, darkness and light, fear and faithfulness. They tell us:

  • God is not absent from our suffering or confusion.
  • Faith often means waiting, not winning.
  • Following Jesus does not spare us from the dark hour, but it keeps us from being defined by it.
  • Spiritual maturity is not dramatic—it is faithful, patient, and practiced over time.

These Scriptures do not offer quick answers. They offer something better: a path. A way of living truthfully, praying honestly, waiting faithfully, and growing steadily—until light breaks through.

A Closing Prayer

Gracious God,
When we feel betrayed, sustain us.
When darkness surrounds us, teach us to wait for Your light.
When fear tempts us to act out of anger or despair,
shape us in the way of Christ—faithful, gentle, and true.
Grow in us the virtues that lead to life,
and keep us steady until the dawn comes.
Amen.

Amanda Joy: Love Worthy of Being Loved, Even in the Wilderness

A Third Sunday of Advent Reflection

The Third Sunday of Advent is called Gaudete—“Rejoice.”
It is the Sunday of joy, marked by the lighting of the rose-colored candle. Yet the joy of Advent is not shallow happiness or easy celebration. It is a joy that dares to exist alongside sorrow, waiting, and longing. It is a joy that survives the wilderness.

That kind of joy entered my life in a painful and unexpected way in the winter of 1974.

After several miscarriages, my wife and I were expecting our first child. She was in her seventh month of pregnancy when she told me she no longer felt the baby moving. What followed was a confusing and heartbreaking series of medical visits. Our obstetricians were twin brothers. One week we were told he could hear the heartbeat; the next week we were told there was none. This uncertainty went on for weeks until it was finally confirmed that our baby had died in the womb.

We were told my wife would have to carry the child to full term.

When labor began in the middle of the night, we went to the hospital. I was sent home and called back shortly afterward. When I stepped off the elevator onto the maternity ward, the doctor was waiting. He spoke briefly, confirmed what we already knew, stepped into the elevator, and left. There were no words of comfort.

I could not see my wife for some time. When she was finally placed in a room, it was shared with a teenage girl who did not want her baby. We, who had longed so deeply for ours, were surrounded by reminders of what we had lost.

We were told we had to make burial arrangements. No funeral was allowed. Our child was placed in a Styrofoam casket and buried in an unmarked grave. She was born on February 12 and buried on February 14—Valentine’s Day.

We had already chosen her name.

If she was a girl, she would be called Amanda Joy.

The Meaning of a Name

Amandа comes from the Latin amanda, meaning “worthy of being loved” or “she who must be loved.”
Joy—a word that felt almost unbearable to speak at the time.

Yet her name proclaimed a truth greater than my grief could grasp. Amanda Joy was worthy of love simply because she existed. Her life mattered. Her joy was not the joy of longevity, but the joy of being held forever in God’s care.

A Minister in the Wilderness

At the time, I was already a minister of the Church. I had preached about faith, offered comfort to others, and spoken confidently of God’s promises. But I was unprepared for this loss.

I did not know how to console my wife.
I did not know how to console myself.
And I did not know how to speak honestly to God.

My faith was shaken, not all at once, but slowly and deeply. I wandered in a spiritual wilderness for many years—still serving, still believing in some way, but lost.

In time, we were blessed with three healthy and wonderful children. They brought life, laughter, and meaning to our home. Yet even as a father and a pastor, I was still in the wilderness, still unable to give my wife what she needed emotionally and spiritually.

After nineteen years of marriage, we divorced.

That truth is painful, but it is part of the story. My wife is a good mother and now a loving grandmother. She found someone else who could give her what I could not at that time. I am deeply thankful for her and for her husband, and for the grace and care they have shown our family. Even in brokenness, God was still working love and mercy.

Forty Years Toward Joy

It took nearly forty years for me to come to a faith that rests not on explanations, but on trust. Like the children of Israel, I wandered for a long time—but God never stopped walking with me.

I have learned that faith is not certainty.
Joy is not denial of pain.
Grace is not quick healing.

The joy of Advent is the joy of knowing that God enters our darkness and stays. It is the joy of waiting with hope, even when the wilderness is long. It is the joy that comes from discovering, at last, that God has been patient with us all along.

Amanda Joy’s life changed me forever. Her name reminds me that love is never wasted, and that joy—true joy—can coexist with grief.

Her grave may be unmarked, but her life is held in God’s eternal remembrance.

A Prayer for the Third Sunday of Advent

Gracious and merciful God,
On this Sunday of joy, we bring you not only our songs,
but also our sorrows.

You know the wildernesses we walk,
the losses we carry,
the questions that have no easy answers.

We thank you for the gift of love—
for children born and children lost,
for relationships that bless us and those that break us open.

Teach us the joy that does not depend on circumstances,
the joy that waits,
the joy that trusts,
the joy that believes you are with us even in the dark.

As we light the candle of joy,
help us remember that your grace is patient,
Your mercy enduring,
and your love is worthy of trust.

Hold us, O God,
until joy becomes not just a promise,
But our home.

Amen.